I Want More

Published April 16, 2014 by konchk

When I wake up.

I want a latte. Covered in cool whhhhip

And all this dumb Fargo snow to melt

Maybe pancakes with choco chips

But I’ll still want more

I want to feel like dancing

Or something like dancing?….

I want to be able to do the splits

Or something that looks like splits?

I want more

I want to never worry again

About a single thing

I want to just write in a blog, make bracelets, and paint

…Learn to sing?

I want much more

I want to bungee jump, sky dive, climb rocks, and stuff like that

But live too

I still want to learn to surf, swim (yeah), and something else probably

Oh poo

Not enough

I want to help someone or something a lot

Like starving children, or something

Is it even right to still want more? I probably would…

I want everything

I want to fall desperately in love

Enough so I can’t fall out

I want someone to love me too?

If anyone like that is out there

But I still really like lattes

Like a lot.



Published April 15, 2014 by konchk

Yes. This is my eye. No. It does not have any relevance to this post.
What is relevant is that I had a spectacular night.

Yes. This is my eye.

Yes. This is my eye.

I mean…the moon is pretty spectacular in itself. Even without an eclipse over it. Even when it is not a beautiful rusty color. And even when I’m not getting my share of kisses under it.

I’ve been waiting flipping forever to get this crapola off my list.
# 42: Share a kiss under a full moon.
# 191: See a lunar eclipse.
Both made the spectacular moon even seem more spectacular to me.

To-Do Lists

Published April 14, 2014 by konchk

Don’t ask me why I do this, but every to-do list I ever ever ever ever make contains mostly things that are…fun? It makes me feel good about myself. I like the feeling I get when I can cross something off, even if it isn’t quite necessary for me to do. And why? I told you not to ask me, but (to me anyways) the fun, unnecessary crapola is actually about as necessary as the necessary crapola. It might be because I get cranky if I work and work and work and have no room for play. And then, do you know what happens to all that work I do?…It isn’t as good, because I am so darn exhausted.
One day Hannah woke up and realized that there wasn’t a point to working working working working working and the work turning to poo because all that work made her grumpy and bored and tired. My rationalization of writing out all the pointless, unnecessary fun stuffs on my list is that it gets me ready for the real deal–the crapola that actually does need to get done.
I’ll let you in a little secret….
It flipping works.

Hannah’s To-Do List
Clean room…not entirely important, but I can’t get anything done if it’s not
Do laundry…running out of clothes? Important.
Do dishes…Therapeutic
Cross-stitching a prettiful picture of a tiger…on my bucket list. Gotta do it.
Work on research paper…NECESSARY, and hopefully I will feel relaxed by then
Go tanning…extremely bad for me, I know, but I want to look all golden for the summer
Paint…Just really want to.
Make bracelets
Watch some Flix of the Net!
Sketch out ideas for art project
Mentally prepare for the LUNAR ECLIPSE….

Hello Friends :)

Published April 13, 2014 by konchk

I understand it has been quite a while. I have to say that I (regretfully) have neglected my blogging duties…and bucket list duties :( I hope to change this. In fact, I’m hoping to change a few things about myself to help me grow as a person, or whatever.

1. For a few weeks, to catch up on bucket list stuff and such…I will try for crossing off two items, instead of one. This will be rather difficult, but very much worth it.

2. Write to you lovely people as much as I can. I need to liven up my writing a bit and wake myself up a bit.

3. More yoga/meditation/walks…Just basically some alone time to clear my mind. School is getting kind of crazy as of now and I need some more energy spoons.

4. Go to class ready. Unfortunately, I have been slacking in this area…Feeling sick or tired or just overwhelmed. Class is still kinda important, since I am going into a poop ton of debt going. Any time I sense myself myself dozing, slap in the face!

5. Leave my debit card at home. Enough said.

6. Have an hour or two every day set aside for just plain creativity.

7. Wake up early. It’s always very tempting to sleep in, but I am less of a cranky butt when I am able to spend the morning doing something productive.

8. Keep my big goals in mind. Pretty important.

9. Lay off the coffee. This one is flipping difficult. Especially with the dozing off part in # 4.

10. Even though # 8 is kinda why I’m here, I need to still enjoy the present and stop worrying about what will happen in the future. Ain’t nobody got time for that!

This last week has been pretty crazy, but I am finding my motivation yet again! Yes…Even though I see a crappy day ahead of me, it helps to keep a smile on my face. Because every day has an end, and I think I’d rather look back on it knowing that I faced it with a good attitude.

To wrap it up, here’s a bit to keep you happy.

Bucket List Adventures: I wrote a letter to my 30 year old self telling me to get off my butt and make my dreams come true, if they haven’t already. I’m always of afraid of losing my passion as I get older and want to keep my inner flame going. Secondly, I went in to a movie theatre on campus and watched a movie alone. I didn’t like it very much. Not because I didn’t like being alone, but because the movie, Her, was incredibly stupid. I mean it…dumb movie, not to be blatant or anything. Just couldn’t relate to the character falling with the voice of Scarlett Johansson in a computer, even with her breathy voice.

Quote of the Week:Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds” -Albert Einstein


Now and Later

Published March 27, 2014 by konchk

The funny thing about being human is the constant compulsion of chasing the future. It’s what makes us special compared to other animals. We think about what we will need/want/be doing/feel/ see later, not just what we need for the present moment to keep is alive. Don’t get me wrong…I do believe animals can have some pretty complex stuff going on in their brains. They feel connections, love, hate, warmth, sadness, grief, loneliness, excitement, anger, fear, and puzzlement like we do…to an extent. But those feelings, even when they are strong, pass. Or at least they don’t loom as much in the future like ours do. We hold onto all of those muddled and complex wants we have for the moment and stick them into a little bottle in the future. For some reason or another, we trick ourselves into believing nothing will change. Or that everything will change. I dunno… We think so much about what will happen– what we will end up working for for the rest of our lives, how much we will end up earning, who our friends will be, what our houses will look like, how many pets we’ll have, if we will start a family, if we will still look as good as we do now, if our health will be good or bad, how many adventurous moments we will have, if we will ever find true happiness. And that’s what we do. We hope that it will get better. And when it is better we want more. And we still think there is more. We want more. Our passion to want more is both wonderful and slightly depressing. It is what makes us special and powerful. We can do anything because we desire anything and everything. But… it is also what makes us confused, lonely, tired, anxious, empty, destitute, sad, and terrified. That drive to chase time. As if we could ever catch it. As if our future holds happiness or something completely worse. What we don’t know,  with all that chasing and thinking and planning and waiting, is that we only have now. We only have today. And we are the only ones that can give us real happiness. But it is nearly impossible to see how unreal later is. It’s plainly just a crap ton of “nows” passing by.

Happy Friday and Have a Wonderful Break!

Published March 14, 2014 by konchk

wpid-storageemulated0PhotoEditor2014-03-14-21.03.44.png.pngWhen you’re not sure, flip a coin because while the coin is in the air, you realize which one you’re hoping for

Thought I’d give a little bit of advice before I head out for spring break tomorrow night. You could probably get a bunch of good stuff from this, but I would like to tell all of you lovely people to go with your gut instinct?…You know better than anyone else out there what you want. So filter out all those darn doubts and go for it. Sometimes you just gotta do what you wanna do. Have a wonderful weekend all!

Some Cool Psychological Stuff…

Published March 13, 2014 by konchk

A very rare surgery severe epileptic patients can receive is one of severing the corpus callosum, which helps both the left and right hemispheres communicate with one another. Well, some pretty interesting stuff occurs in these patients. It turns out, that when the dear corpus callosum is severed, the patient seems to have “two” brains because of the inability for those halves to communicate. To put this in perspective, here is a video with good ole Alan Alda that explains this process much better than I do…Enjoy!



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